One. Un. Uno.

Yes. I need only one man. I want…only one man. I will get…only one man who wants me to be their only woman. Ain’t found him yet…but God will provide J So….this blog post. Monogamy. Really? Yup. Monogamy. I believe in it…and I will get it. I want just one…because I only need just one. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve tried seeing more than one person at a time…I was successful at it too…but I didn’t like it. I had three going strong…but it was just too much. I dropped it down to two…but it was still just too much. I can barely give my heart to ONE person, let alone trying to give it to two or more people.
Simply put…I don’t like the idea of many men “knowing” me…mentally, physically or spiritually. I’ve been told…love one and just keep another around for “backup” or as the “fun one” or whatever the second can fulfill that the first isn’t. I’ve been told you can love two people at the same time. I’ve been told “what he doesn’t know won’t hurt…he’s probably doing the same thing.” Really people? I’m just not built that way. I tried…just can’t do it. Not to say others can’t…I just know ME…and I. Can’t. Do. That.

I give my all to one person and I expect the same in return. It’s impossible for me to love more than one person at the same time because love is an action…love is a choice…love is expressed. When I love somebody…they get ALL my love. That makes it impossible for me to love two people…ALL is not a fraction…it’s a whole. I expect the same of my man. I say this all the time…I don’t like to share…I’m selfish with good reason. I want to be the only one. A man can never be truly in tune with me…if they are off trying to be in tune with someone else too. It just doesn’t work. Especially the way MY mind goes?? You’d drive yourself insane if you tried to be with me and someone else too. My instincts are surreal…so good luck trying. But anyway…commitment is not hard for me. I think there is something powerful about being committed to one person. To know there is only one person getting your attention, getting your love, experiencing your body, learning your mind…that is VERY erotic to me. You have something nobody else is getting…none of it. The many layers of me are only being exposed to that one person…and the lucky one will be able to get down to my core. And vice versa…if you have that man/woman that you know is being monogamous…isn‘t it erotic to know others want your man/woman but can‘t get NOTHING? BUT…then again… men I have met don’t think like that. They think they can have their cake, pie, ice cream, chicken wings, beer, white and brown liquor and cereal without any complications. More power to ya.

So it’s easy for me to be committed…but don’t think I just commit to ANYONE. Yea right…that takes a LOT of time. I’ve only been fully committed to one person so far. Didn’t work out, but was well worth the try…learned a lot about myself in the process. So on that note…being monogamous…fully committed….leads to one thing. Marriage. Shift in your seat if you must…but yes I still believe in marriage, even if my first didn’t work out. But….that’s another blog…stay tuned.