Do I think right?
or does it come from the left...
Ok what thought is next
No cheating! Get behind the rest
Have you run through my mind yet?
Several times I bet
Some things I don't get
Hey wait.. have we met?
A thought is coming
Not walking it's running
It's about to come through
Oh no! Not you :(
Just what did I do
How about one, not two
An animal says moo?
Huh.. huh.. ha CHOO!
God bless you!
No me! you too..
Was that true?
Here comes another!
My gosh where's my mother
She made me like this
A brain cell was missed
Cause I've lost my mind!
Please help me find
Shoot! I forgot the time
Ya better get in line
There's no telling
Just how many thoughts you will find :)
Me
It's just me.
In the end I am the one who has to live with and be happy with what I see
and love the person inside and out I have turned out to be.
Regardless of what others may perceive or believe or conceive
To be free I must love and trust in me.
It's just me.
Responsible for my actions and wherever they may lead
and to except the consequences, good or bad, that I could receive.
Regardless right or wrong or my intentions they may be
To be free I must love and trust in me.
It's just me.
Full of love and life a free spirit for those to see
wanting others to live a life so blessed and full of grace like me
Regardless if they choose to follow or accept who I may be
To be free I must love and trust in me.
In the end I am the one who has to live with and be happy with what I see
and love the person inside and out I have turned out to be.
Regardless of what others may perceive or believe or conceive
To be free I must love and trust in me.
It's just me.
Responsible for my actions and wherever they may lead
and to except the consequences, good or bad, that I could receive.
Regardless right or wrong or my intentions they may be
To be free I must love and trust in me.
It's just me.
Full of love and life a free spirit for those to see
wanting others to live a life so blessed and full of grace like me
Regardless if they choose to follow or accept who I may be
To be free I must love and trust in me.
Too Many Options?
Absence doesn't make my heart grow fonder
It makes it wander
I don't care where you've been or not been
When too much time passes I feel forgotten
Insecure? Nope. Just how I feel
I say what's inside cause my feelings are real
Time is made it's not by chance
Who's in your schedule... in your plans
Another night passed. The next day came
Its not the same time for change
I'm not sorry. It's you. Not me.
An option? No. Priority.
It makes it wander
I don't care where you've been or not been
When too much time passes I feel forgotten
Insecure? Nope. Just how I feel
I say what's inside cause my feelings are real
Time is made it's not by chance
Who's in your schedule... in your plans
Another night passed. The next day came
Its not the same time for change
I'm not sorry. It's you. Not me.
An option? No. Priority.
Rejuvenated
Everything is so clear... so ordered. You ever look back at each day and think, "Wow. How?" I have so many stories of how my life has been perfectly ordered it's amazing. I've actually had time to sit still and do nothing for three days straight. I cannot begin to tell you how great it feels to do NOTHING lol. I had been rollin for 13 days straight before this past weekend... and I mean ROLLIN. I was working 24hr and 12hr shifts... and moved from one apt to another in between. Took care of school physicals and enrolling them in school... just to immediately hit the road to Jersey to take care of some more stuff.
As chaotic as it has seemed, looking back, it all was ordered and worked out just fine. I thought my body was going to crash on me.. and it did.. but I've had three days to recover so again.. ordered.
Just when you think you can't handle anymore.. a break in the clouds is revealed by the tiniest hint of light. Again you have hope... the rays shine through and immediately you start to feel rejuvenated. I feel rejuvenated. I can start rollin again. And when it comes time for my body to crash... there will be some days for rest ahead. He'll never give you more than you can handle. If you feel like you are getting way more than others... then take that as a blessing because that just means God knows that you are one tough cookie :)
As chaotic as it has seemed, looking back, it all was ordered and worked out just fine. I thought my body was going to crash on me.. and it did.. but I've had three days to recover so again.. ordered.
Just when you think you can't handle anymore.. a break in the clouds is revealed by the tiniest hint of light. Again you have hope... the rays shine through and immediately you start to feel rejuvenated. I feel rejuvenated. I can start rollin again. And when it comes time for my body to crash... there will be some days for rest ahead. He'll never give you more than you can handle. If you feel like you are getting way more than others... then take that as a blessing because that just means God knows that you are one tough cookie :)
Wondervision
I am left to wonder if what is meant to be will be and if this vision I'm envisioning is something others too will see.. when it comes to life.. if it's really real.. I have to conceal what I really feel because it might come across as crazy.. my sight could be hazy not necessarily seeing the truth but instead this story which phased me into believing this person is for me from now into eternity... my heart is saying one thing while my mind says it's confused... evidence of a woman conflicted after her trust has been abused and used by those she should forget... because he isn't like them yet and most likely will never be because the vision I am envisioning is that this man is for me... and to be with me means love, protect and to keep safe from harm... wrapped in his arms laying by his side.. the shit they pulled he has not tried... I see a future full of truth and trust those two are a must if we are to move forward and go.. to the place I can see but do not know that if what is meant to be will be and if this vision I'm envisioning is something others too will see.. when it comes to life... cause it's really real... I don't have to conceal what I really feel because I don't care if it comes across as crazy... my sight isn't hazy I see truth not a story that this man is for me... he's not like the others and though currently lovers eventually I'll know just how far we will go... if my vision comes true and others recognize and say that, "he's just right for you."
I Loved You?
I loved you once, but not anymore. If there's no more love there, then it was never there before. You can't say you loved someone, truly mean it, then move on. There is no such thing as loving, then all of a sudden love is gone. "I love you, but I'm not in love" is a line so many use. It's a line wrapped with a lie to make the receiver feel confused. Instead of simply saying, "I don't want to be with you." They use that line because they know that pain can follow truth. Love can be a noun, but I know I prefer the verb. I want to SEE you love me, rather than the word only be heard. A concept so few get, or even really care to learn. Cause when that word was thrown out once or twice, instead of loved someone got burned. Very few heard "I love you" from me. Words rarely used. If I say it, then I mean it. A phrase I don't abuse. Love can be given, but not given back. Does that mean the lover lied? No. One day that love will be returned because the lover tried. Love is meant forever and will last if it is true. Whether apart or still together real love will stay with you. The ones who didn't deserve it needed your love more. It's not us who determines what our love's to be used for.
Sleep is for Sissies
3 in da mornin at the Martin house..
4 in da mornin he's already at ma house..
5 in da mornnnnnin the lights go out
6 in da mornin you can hear us moan and shout..
7 in da mornin still be gettin it in...
8 in da mornin i'll be sleep right next ta him
9 in da mornin.. nah he ain't gotta go..
Talkin about the overnight scenario... scenario...
For those who know the song... yes I changed the lyrics.
It's 3:20 am and I am WIDE AWAKE... insomnia is a bi0tch... and yes my left eye lid is still twitching because I should be getting sleep... i guess :/
Why up so late? No I did not go out. A friday night and i went to the gym at 9pm... got caught up in netflix when i got home.. then decided to redo some of my hair... next thing I know.. it's 2 am. Go figure. My boo tang is working so there's really no overnight scenario going on here lol
I think I am just so happy I have a working keyboard on my computer.. that I just want to keep typing and typing. I've been trying to think of some good thoughts to blog about.. but I think I am so stressed and overworked that my brain has yet to fully function properly. Believe it or not... Ronny is actually thinking about NOTHING. Ya know why? Because there's so many things to think about that I can't decide which thought to focus on. I know right now I am thinking about food though... ugh! On that note.. I think I will go to bed because there ain't nothing healthy I want to eat at 3:30am... GNight!
4 in da mornin he's already at ma house..
5 in da mornnnnnin the lights go out
6 in da mornin you can hear us moan and shout..
7 in da mornin still be gettin it in...
8 in da mornin i'll be sleep right next ta him
9 in da mornin.. nah he ain't gotta go..
Talkin about the overnight scenario... scenario...
For those who know the song... yes I changed the lyrics.
It's 3:20 am and I am WIDE AWAKE... insomnia is a bi0tch... and yes my left eye lid is still twitching because I should be getting sleep... i guess :/
Why up so late? No I did not go out. A friday night and i went to the gym at 9pm... got caught up in netflix when i got home.. then decided to redo some of my hair... next thing I know.. it's 2 am. Go figure. My boo tang is working so there's really no overnight scenario going on here lol
I think I am just so happy I have a working keyboard on my computer.. that I just want to keep typing and typing. I've been trying to think of some good thoughts to blog about.. but I think I am so stressed and overworked that my brain has yet to fully function properly. Believe it or not... Ronny is actually thinking about NOTHING. Ya know why? Because there's so many things to think about that I can't decide which thought to focus on. I know right now I am thinking about food though... ugh! On that note.. I think I will go to bed because there ain't nothing healthy I want to eat at 3:30am... GNight!
TGIF
Well HELLLLLOOOO everyone! How are you doing on this fine Friday evening?? I am doing grrrrreeeeeeeaaaat! Yup.. I tony tigered it. Why so happy?? Cause i finally just got to sit down :) My keyboard is now full of keys... thanks to Target... and I can happily type my lil heart away.
So what's new? Not too much new with me... been working my @$$ off these past couple of weeks and intend to do the same for the next upcoming weeks... womp womp. It will be nice when I can actually KEEP my paycheck.. then I can say it was worth it lol
I said in my last blog I would continue on another day.. however, I forgot what I was venting about that day and really don't remember what I am continuing. Sorry. No juicy gossip just yet.. well me and da boo is still going.. is that juicy enough??? I really like him... he's cool people :) I'm sure you're wondering if I am in love... well... I said in a previous blog.. I am FALLING... but I ain't completely fell yet... CLOSE! but not yet.. i will know.. when i know... when i know... and then YOU will know too.
Sorry I don't have much to say... I have to go workout and get back in time before my chicken is done.. oh my eye is STILL twitching!! Aint dat some ish... everyone keeps telling me it's stress and I am tired. Well.. I can't disagree. So hopefully that stress-free day will come real soon and my left eyelid can stop making my vision shake... Happy Friday!! TGIF
So what's new? Not too much new with me... been working my @$$ off these past couple of weeks and intend to do the same for the next upcoming weeks... womp womp. It will be nice when I can actually KEEP my paycheck.. then I can say it was worth it lol
I said in my last blog I would continue on another day.. however, I forgot what I was venting about that day and really don't remember what I am continuing. Sorry. No juicy gossip just yet.. well me and da boo is still going.. is that juicy enough??? I really like him... he's cool people :) I'm sure you're wondering if I am in love... well... I said in a previous blog.. I am FALLING... but I ain't completely fell yet... CLOSE! but not yet.. i will know.. when i know... when i know... and then YOU will know too.
Sorry I don't have much to say... I have to go workout and get back in time before my chicken is done.. oh my eye is STILL twitching!! Aint dat some ish... everyone keeps telling me it's stress and I am tired. Well.. I can't disagree. So hopefully that stress-free day will come real soon and my left eyelid can stop making my vision shake... Happy Friday!! TGIF
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