My thoughts are all over the place. I start to write one thing.. scratch that. Write something else. Scratch that.. I forget where I was going with it. Scratch that.. it's not at the forefront of my brain.
FOCUS. What is pressing so hard against my scull.. trying to break free? What is it that I MUST get out at this very moment.. in this very blog.
It's just me. I started to write a poem about it... but it just wasn't flowing because my thoughts are so scattered that the phrases just weren't making sense. But then again... it's a poem right.. they hardly ever make sense anyway.
It's just me. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.. I just know.. it is what it is.. just me. You ever have somebody tell you, "It's not you, it's me." I've said that before... a few times I lied cause lawd knows it was NOT me lol... however, the majority of the time, if I said it.. I meant it. I don't know... remember when I said I was waiting for an answer and I was pretty sure my answer would come real soon? (in a previous blog). Well... I got my answer.
It's just me. And at this point in time... for some reason... it is just supposed to be me. I guess I am okay with that... I mean it DOES make sense. But right now... I'm really not in the mood to make sense. I'm not in the mood to learn another lesson or to have some grand epiphany.. Is it possible to go ONE day without learning something? or realizing something? I guess not. I suppose you should be dead if you really want life to stop. That's basically what life is.. you know this right.. living and learning.. every.freakin.day. Yup.
I am sitting here... in the dark per-say... with my Christmas lights lighting the room. It's beautiful. And just like that... emotional. UGH. I've come along way. And I am okay with it being just me. After all.. I like me.. so its all good. Goodnight.
Endure
If you've never heard the song "Whats coming..." by Deon Kipping... you should go to YouTube right now and listen to this song. I just heard it for the first time. Perfect timing. I honestly have to remind myself every day that what's coming is better than what's been. Don't get me wrong... I'm grateful for now... I'm happy in my now... which makes it possible for better to come.
You ever make a decision where you know it's the right thing to do... but you still don't want to do it? Seems like the story of my life. Not going to go in depth on this one... just listen to the song. About to get my kiddies... until next time.
Keep enduring... He will never fail you.
You ever make a decision where you know it's the right thing to do... but you still don't want to do it? Seems like the story of my life. Not going to go in depth on this one... just listen to the song. About to get my kiddies... until next time.
Keep enduring... He will never fail you.
Dropped the Ball
Last night... very spur of the moment I was invited to a Gospel Comedy Show... or Christian Comedy Show... or a radio show's Comedy Show that threw Gospel on the title to attract more folk. I don't know... but anyway. So I go to this show... VERY funny! I had a great time and had some good laughs! Glad I went because it was a very interesting experience. For this show to be called a Gospel Comedy Show... there was one thing missing... the GOSPEL! I don't remember learning or hearing NOTHING about God. If His name WAS mentioned... it certainly wasn't in a way that would be memorable. No prayers were said... no praise was lifted.. except at the beginning... but anyway...
This show had three comedians.. the first one was funny... second one sucked.. and the third was funny. The host of the show was also funny. It started out with Sheila Bell "Da bell" from the radio show coming out on stage to get the show started. I give her credit because she brought the name of Jesus to the beginning of the show and got the crowd all hyped up for the show to begin. The sad part is... poor lil Jesus was left right there... at the beginning of the show and was never carried on throughout.
The comedians basically put on a show just like I would see at the Funny Bone (a regular comedy club).. the only things they left out were curse words and EXPLICIT sexual content. One or two of the comedians hinted around the sexual content enough where they might have well been explicit... however... I get it... we were in church so I'm sure they feared getting struck by lightening on stage... just like I feared for them as well, after some of the things they said anyway.
The theme of the show was "Sinners and Saints". What did I learn from the show? Everyone is a sinner... therefore we should not judge because some of us are becoming more 'saintly' every day. So basically... keep doing what you're doing.. it's okay to laugh at the dirty jokes... it's okay for the comedians to make fun of the gays, whites and retarded people... because a sinner is just a saint who fell down... but can get up. No harm is done because they are saved and no matter what they do... God still has their back. Oh and did I mention don't judge?? That was a reoccurring phrase throughout the ENTIRE show... said by each comedian and the host too. DO NOT JUDGE! Did you hear me.. DO NOT JUDGE!
So the show was over. The hostess announced some of the comedians were selling merchandise, taking pictures and signing autographs... so don't skip the booths on the way out. And that was that... DISMISSED... show over.
The church where the show was held holds up to 5,000 people. At least 1,000-2,000 people were there last night and everyone paid $20... YOU do the math. Everyone was reminded that time went back an hour because of daylights savings time.. which gave them plenty of time to hit the club after leaving the comedy show. YES, the host said this SEVERAL times. There was no mention that tomorrow (today) was Sunday and we could have been well rested to attend... uhhhhhhh.... hmmmmmm..... CHURCH? I was IN a church... but I was never told the times of service... who the pastor was... I don't even believe the pastor was AT the show because if he/she were... I would hope they would have been a lil perturbed about what just went on.
I'm not knocking the show. I am not going to JUDGE just as I was advised at the show. So then what is my problem? There were over a 1,000 people there last night and I am sure there were MANY who have never been introduced to Christ... let alone have Him in their hearts. Last night was a PERFECT opportunity to share the word! The GOSPEL! The reason why each comedian said they have their job... why they were blessed... and have such wonderful wives and families... because of JESUS! But yet nobody offered to tell the audience HOW to live a life like them! Isn't that the purpose of having Christ in your life... to share the good news with those who do not know Him? It is not up to us to save a person... but as a child of Christ... I thought we have an obligation to make others aware of His presence... and give them the choice to follow or not follow.
St. Paul's, I feel like you guys dropped the ball last night. I'm grateful for the show... I sure you guys are grateful for the paycheck you made... but nowhere in there do I associate your church with the word of God. I believe popularity and money are the core of your beliefs... and God in thrown in there to achieve those things. Unfortunately, this is not just coming from my visit last night. I have attended your church in the past, and last night solidified what I originally felt at my first visit.
For others, that church may do something for them... for me... not so much. I encourage everyone to go see for themselves... if you disagree with my thoughts... cool... you go to that church and I will continue going to mine. I won't judge you... if you don't judge me! Haha :)
This show had three comedians.. the first one was funny... second one sucked.. and the third was funny. The host of the show was also funny. It started out with Sheila Bell "Da bell" from the radio show coming out on stage to get the show started. I give her credit because she brought the name of Jesus to the beginning of the show and got the crowd all hyped up for the show to begin. The sad part is... poor lil Jesus was left right there... at the beginning of the show and was never carried on throughout.
The comedians basically put on a show just like I would see at the Funny Bone (a regular comedy club).. the only things they left out were curse words and EXPLICIT sexual content. One or two of the comedians hinted around the sexual content enough where they might have well been explicit... however... I get it... we were in church so I'm sure they feared getting struck by lightening on stage... just like I feared for them as well, after some of the things they said anyway.
The theme of the show was "Sinners and Saints". What did I learn from the show? Everyone is a sinner... therefore we should not judge because some of us are becoming more 'saintly' every day. So basically... keep doing what you're doing.. it's okay to laugh at the dirty jokes... it's okay for the comedians to make fun of the gays, whites and retarded people... because a sinner is just a saint who fell down... but can get up. No harm is done because they are saved and no matter what they do... God still has their back. Oh and did I mention don't judge?? That was a reoccurring phrase throughout the ENTIRE show... said by each comedian and the host too. DO NOT JUDGE! Did you hear me.. DO NOT JUDGE!
So the show was over. The hostess announced some of the comedians were selling merchandise, taking pictures and signing autographs... so don't skip the booths on the way out. And that was that... DISMISSED... show over.
The church where the show was held holds up to 5,000 people. At least 1,000-2,000 people were there last night and everyone paid $20... YOU do the math. Everyone was reminded that time went back an hour because of daylights savings time.. which gave them plenty of time to hit the club after leaving the comedy show. YES, the host said this SEVERAL times. There was no mention that tomorrow (today) was Sunday and we could have been well rested to attend... uhhhhhhh.... hmmmmmm..... CHURCH? I was IN a church... but I was never told the times of service... who the pastor was... I don't even believe the pastor was AT the show because if he/she were... I would hope they would have been a lil perturbed about what just went on.
I'm not knocking the show. I am not going to JUDGE just as I was advised at the show. So then what is my problem? There were over a 1,000 people there last night and I am sure there were MANY who have never been introduced to Christ... let alone have Him in their hearts. Last night was a PERFECT opportunity to share the word! The GOSPEL! The reason why each comedian said they have their job... why they were blessed... and have such wonderful wives and families... because of JESUS! But yet nobody offered to tell the audience HOW to live a life like them! Isn't that the purpose of having Christ in your life... to share the good news with those who do not know Him? It is not up to us to save a person... but as a child of Christ... I thought we have an obligation to make others aware of His presence... and give them the choice to follow or not follow.
St. Paul's, I feel like you guys dropped the ball last night. I'm grateful for the show... I sure you guys are grateful for the paycheck you made... but nowhere in there do I associate your church with the word of God. I believe popularity and money are the core of your beliefs... and God in thrown in there to achieve those things. Unfortunately, this is not just coming from my visit last night. I have attended your church in the past, and last night solidified what I originally felt at my first visit.
For others, that church may do something for them... for me... not so much. I encourage everyone to go see for themselves... if you disagree with my thoughts... cool... you go to that church and I will continue going to mine. I won't judge you... if you don't judge me! Haha :)
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