If you don't mean it...don't waste your time saying it.
I hate phoniness. Did I spell that right? Why be fake? You're just wasting mine and yours time. If I don't know you, I don't really care. Sorry...that's just the way it is. Your opinion...what you think of me...how you perceive me...doesn't really matter. In fact, if you are being phony with me, I'm not going to put forth the effort to GET to know you because whatever I get is going to be fake anyway. But if i DO know you??? Have enough respect for me to be honest. If you really knew me...you would know what I can handle. Anything.
Phoniness is malicious. To be phony is to make another person THINK you care...when you really don't. You smile to their face...but talk shit in your head. You shower them with compliments...but talk shit in your head. You say what you don't mean. So basically...to be phony...you must lie. If ya don't know by now....I. HATE. LYING. I hate when people do it and I hate to do it myself. If I do lie, put enough pressure and I will come out with the truth...or I will put enough pressure on myself and come out with the truth. I'm very easily read when I'm lying because it really makes me uncomfortable. I'd rather say the truth and hurt your feelings then lie and make you think I care.
Where is this coming from? I thought I was cared about. I thought what I felt mattered, what I wanted mattered, what I said mattered, what I believe mattered...and it didn't, when I was lead to believe it did. Um. That's rough. I always hear, "People lie because they don't want to hurt the other persons feelings." Really? That's bullshit. A cop out. Laziness. Cowardly. I'd rather hurt your feelings and set you free for someone who really DOES care. I tell the truth because i DO care. If I didn't care I wouldn't be talking to you in the first place. But then again...that's just me apparently <sigh> :(
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