Questions

Questions. I used to have so many. Okay... so I still DO have so many... but I'm learning there's really no reason to ask so many questions. All of our answers are visible... you see them, hear them.. every day. I've learned if I keep asking a lot of questions... I am really just waiting to hear the answer I WANT to hear. But usually... it only takes one or two quality questions to get everything you need to know.

Next time a person speaks... listen to what they say. Watch what they do... you will find all the answers you need.

I don't make friends easily because it takes something unique for me to consider anyone my friend. I am cautious. VERY cautious of people because not everybody has good intentions. I've learned to separate myself from people who are deliberately out to hurt me. I'm not talking physically hurt me... I'm talking about people that have the nerve to try and fuck with my heart... or to take advantage of my heart. THAT red flag pops up immediately now and I am able to see it very clearly.

So what do I do? I cut people off from my heart. I may not be able to compartmentalize my feelings very well... but I've learned that if don't even GO there.. then it is SO much easier. Not sure if that's going to hurt me or help me in the end... but it seems to have been working pretty well. I'm at peace with it... so that's really all that matters.

Actually... now that I think about it... yea it IS going to hurt me for a lil while because just as I said I was ready for love the other day... today I feel like "Nobody is getting into my heart." So the only way I can figure... is that special somebody that is meant to love me is gonna have a HELLUVA time trying to get me to know that the love is REAL. I will be watching and listening very closely.. but lately... all I see and hear is nothing that really appeals to me.

With that said... any questions??? LMAO ... i'm gonna go workout :/