Inside Out

You ever feel like who you are on the inside doesn't match what you look like on the outside? I'm not talking about feeling pretty/ugly or anything... I'm talking physically. For instance, you ever see someone and be like "Wow they look so smart... or so mean... so strong... so weak... so athletic.. or nonathletic" but when you talk to that person and get to know them, the outside is nothing like who they are on the inside.

I don't think I've ever felt like my outside matched who I am on the inside. I feel like fine china on the inside... but exude that of steel lol Don't get me wrong... I like my body... and I like who I am... I just don't think they match. Of course I can BE steel... but that's a conscious decision... I don't think that's who I am.

Misunderstood. Because people tend to judge by the cover... so many of us are misunderstood. Think about it... if you see a 6'7" tall athletic looking man, the first thought that comes to mind is, "He must play basketball." When the reality is, he's a bookworm that loves to design computer programs and has no interest in any type of sport.

I love ballet. I always loved ballet since I was little. However, I was told I wasn't built for ballet. So I never tried it. When I did track in high school... I wanted to be a high jumper and long jumper. However, I was told I should be a thrower and was placed with the throwers. I was great at throwing... but I never loved it. Every time I tried to long jump or high jump, my coach would purposely make our throwing sessions so they conflicted with the jumpers sessions. I don't regret throwing... it opened many doors and opportunities for me. But inside, I never felt like a thrower. I felt like I belonged on the dance team lol However, I wasn't built for it.

You have the body of X... therefore you should be a Y. While most of the time that happens... it's not ALWAYS the case. If you have the body of a ballerina... and you love ballet... then you should be a ballerina. However, if you don't have the body of a ballerina... but you love ballet... you can still be a ballerina.

I guess my point is... your body is not who you are. It's who's inside that body that determines who you are. Nobody said I wanted to be a professional ballerina... but I would have at least loved to learn the sport. Who knows... maybe I could have coached someone who fits the description of a ballerina and also loves it.

Anyway... Find ways to express who you are on the inside... while still cherishing that beautiful canvas which displays daily... and is necessary for your soul to reside in. By doing what you love, regardless of what you look like, maybe it will force others to see a different cover to the contents of the book.