One of....?? No. Only.

I don't know how to be "one of" someone's women. I see it everyday...some women can do it. I can't. I won't. If I can't be the only one...then I don't want to be with you at all. I've written on it before...but it keeps surfacing in my life on a daily basis. I know plenty of women that are okay with being the "main" chick, "side" chick,  or "some" chick...in a man's life. I'm not knocking it, I understand many of the reasoning... I just don't prefer that for myself. Let me tell you... it gets REAL lonely REAL quick lol...just playin. But sometimes I really do wonder if the women that say they are okay...are really okay.

Why is that okay? What makes you okay with it?

I'm not okay with it, and I've been called jealous and insecure because of it. I'm not jealous...never been the jealous type. If I were jealous of another woman then that means I wish I were her, had what she had, does what she does or something right? Well, put it this way.. if i am the "other" woman, why would I be jealous of the "main" chick? He's not faithful to her either! What's so special about that?? I've been called insecure when I accused a man I was messing with, with messing with somebody else. How was I insecure? I have no idea...cause I was right. He was messing with somebody else. But I guess that makes me a jealous, insecure woman. So be it lol idgaf.

I'm selfish. I will definitely admit that and very territorial...what's mine is mine. I don't see anything wrong with that. If you're my man...you're just that...MY man. Duh. But when you bring ying, yang, yo and bee into the equation, I'd rather take myself out and be by myself. I'm not sharing and if that means I have to go... Cool. Somewhere there is a man that believes my philosophy. If not...oh well. God and my kids are always good enough :)

But because my mind never really stops at one answer...I also just figure fidelity just isn't a high priority for a lot of people. Money, materialistic things, secure/stable lifestyle, or just being comfortable and not wanting to rock the boat is sufficient enough to keep them happy; even if their honey dips out a couple times. That's cool...I get it. But like I said...it's just not me and most likely will never be.